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People will never know how good UM is until they join the real world.
Please forgive the ignoramus!

30.10.2012

我知道我讲了好多次。
但我还是忍不住再说：

我好感激遇到疼我的人~
LMY、TSK、PNK、LCL、THC、LSC

命水

每一个人都有不同的命水。

我一直都很感激。。。

就算不漂亮、就算坏脾气、就算不如意

上天总是待我不薄

我没有出色的成绩，但是我得到别人未必进到的公司。

我没有出色的语言能力，但是我有疼我的老板娘。

我整天做错东西，但是我有包容我的人。

我拿不到第一选择，上天给我最好的国立大学。

我有一段黑暗的时光，老天让我认识最好的朋友。

我有任性的脾气，但认识的总包容我。

我没有邻家小妹的气息，但我总遇到疼我的姐姐们。

 我成长的太快，总是忘了我的年龄。。。

疼我的人让我觉得自己还小，总爱对他们撒撒娇、开开玩笑

其实我已经成年了，明天就25岁咯

我真的真的很感激。。。

我得到的也许未必是我要的，但老天爷总会补偿我。

天无不散之筵席

觉得自己不相信长久。。。
觉得自己没有信心。。。

当年可以轰轰烈烈
今天可以因为人的改不改变而分开。。。

爱你的人，可以更爱别人。
也因这样，你觉得被抛弃了。

曾经，我不能接受 “天无不散之筵席”。。。
如今，我相信也接受它。。。

因为人本来就是一个独立的生物。
出世时是一个人，走的时候也只能一个人走。
只是看人在一生留下了什么。
 

Training EQ @ Work

Back from training last week.
EQ@Work...
Basically it talk about EQ..
The definition, how it work, the competencies...

From the training, we done some test.
There are 2 EQ test that I feel impressed.

1st test, we are using Johari's Window.
"Are you a sensitive person"
This is question from Trainer when he saw the graph i plot.

Well...I am.
I willing to share, but I am not open to the feedback from others.
I have a lot of blind spots where I didn't realize the bad thing of my own but other know.
In other side, I have less facade.
Facade represent the personality I know but people don't know.

The second test that we had done is DISC.
Form the test, it shows I am a high C and S person.
C stand for compliance and S stand for Steadiness.
Trainer said I am an administrative and demand orientated person.
I only trust something if got black and white.
I am weak in people communication.
From the test, it also shows I am struggling to lead.

Bingo!
All hit the bull eyes.


Thoughts after the training:
I am sensitive, so I like people treat with me with 'heart'.
I will treat you the same.
If I found that you are pretending, I will chop off the relationship.
I will not accept whatever reason you gave.
Because of the sensitivity, I scare to build up relationship with people.
I scare to get hurt.

I hate to force myself to change, so I didn't hide myself.
That why I have less facade now.
I used to be hate myself.
I don't want to go back and repeat the same thing.

Things I need to improve is the people communication.
I don't want to pretend someone else, so I will angry if I am pissed off.
I will act emotionally if I am stress.
I am being very straight forward for the error that people had done.
Well, I guess this is one of the reason people hate me.

I only trust the things that can convince me.
If no answer for my question or not convincing enough, I wouldn't take it or buy it.
I follow the rules, so I will do my task follow the process.

I am struggling to lead in the things that I do.
Either in my job or people relationship.
In my job, I am still not able to find my position.
I am expect people surround me able to fight with me.
I didn't want them fight for me, I am not their lead.
It's just not my time for this moment.
In people relationship, I scare I'll get hurt if I am the one being true 1st.
So I usually observe and wait until a day I know this people.
Then only I can open up with them.
It's might slow but it is safe for me.

I know I need to improve myself.
I just need more TIME.

二十五岁的愿望

今天知道周围发生了一些事情。
情真的那么迷人么？
迷得可以让人舍弃父母的养育之恩？


我真的不明白、依然不能接受。

一年，够了！
我一直在折磨自己的心
 一直在逃避。。。

这个月，我就活了1/4的世纪。。。
不想把这些黑暗再带回我的生活

我曾经摆脱、再掉进黑暗。。。

这一切都会结束。。。

我必须找到出口，寻找我的一片天。

未曾后悔过

我不曾后悔
。。。选择朋友
 告诉我，朋友的定义在哪里？
在于认识？
在于同窗？
还是在于生活于同一区？

我的确选择性的交朋友。
被认同为朋友的人。
在生活上、在经历上，与我总有那么一点共同点。

我很庆幸因为我的选择性。。。
人生中遇到的朋友都是益友。
 我们可以再各自的生活中学习。
我也格外珍惜。

我想大声的讲出来：
“我没后悔过选择性的交朋友！”

03。10。2012

感动~
可又回问自己那么一点小事也值得感动么？

重要的是在我最需要的时候让我感动。
对的时候，做对的事。

要更加努力！